Friday, December 31, 2010

So that got me thinkin...

After yesterday's post, I am pretty confident that there is more that I need to work on than just a better outlet for my ranting.  Perhaps my working on that resolution is what brought about the realization for these new resolutions, in which case it appears I'm on a pretty good track.  My horoscope yesterday said that I needed to be creative in my resolutions for this year, and that I needed to choose one or two areas of my life to work on rather than seeing my entire self as a giant moving flaw that needs improving.  Oh how those zodiac signs can read me...

OK, so here are my resolutions this year:

1) Pull my  head out of my ass regarding my relationship. 

So as mentioned yesterday, my relationship has hit a rough patch the last couple of months.  We've been disagreeing, not very affectionate,  and really not even on the same schedule as my big-time DJ Boyfriend has been traveling around for gigs.  Which, of course, I'm really excited for him to be doing so well!  But it leaves me home alone with our Rottweiler, Maggie and cat, Puka on most weekends.  So that leaves a lot of time for me to think, over think and then rethink issues that we've been having and make them even worse.

Also, I have a tendency to be wordy (something I'm sure having a blog will NOT improve).  So when we sit down for a "talk" it never goes well.  I end up droning on and on hoping that something I say will spur him into a conversational frenzy.  I am wrong every time.  Instead, he stares at the TV interjecting the occasional grunt or "I hear you" to give me the impression that he is still conscious and listening (neither of which is really true).  And generally, nothing gets accomplished or resolved and we both walk away feeling drained and frustrated.

So.  To accomplish this resolution, this is my plan of attack (because I?  Am nothing if not an over-planner.)

a) I will voice my frustrations on this blog until I realize that I am being petty or hormonal, or whatever.
b)Should I come to the realization after much reflection time and soul searching that what I am experiencing is an actual problem, I will summarize my thoughts in a concise 3-5 minute discussion, and not allow myself to go beyond that.
c) I will stop keeping tally of everything.  Most times, what he does for me significantly outweighs the small things I do, so give it up. 
d) I will maintain the confidence that he does care about me and shows it every day in making me laugh, playing my favorite songs when recording his radio shows and making me dinner.
e) I will drop the negativity, as it only brings more negativity. 
f) I will understand that, although I can see his flaws and motivation for entertaining certain groups of people, the truth of the matter is that he's a pretty fantastic guy that everyone just wants a piece of.  And I should appreciate the fact that they can also see the wonderful man that has chosen to be with me.  They are not a threat, they are simply paying homage to the brilliant choice I have made in deciding to be with him.

2) I will seriously focus on my business!!

I began my own event planning business this year.  ( for all of your event planning needs!)  Although I have started up my website, ordered business cards, gone to networking events, and actually got to plan a few events this year, it would be a lie if I said that I had whole-heartedly tried to really make a go of this business.  It's hard!.... OK, I'll stop pouting now.

a) I will take that marketing guy's advice, go get myself some good stationary, and make myself a list of influential people for my business.  I will commit to contacting these people every other month to forge solid relationships with them to improve my business

b) I will peruse Internet sites geared toward event planning needs and actually reach out to these people

c) I will actively look for venues in need of event planners and seek out careers with them either free-lance or full time

d) I will remember that I am awesome at what I do, and stop making excuses for people's budgets.  I'm in this to make money, right?  You can't get all this awesomeness for free, ya know.

So I think those are 2 really good things to work on this year.  I have my plan of attack all outlined and organized.  I think this could be good, and I see multiple benefits of working on both.  Yeah... I'll keep 'em!  (You did notice that "go to the gym more" didn't make the cut?)

Thursday, December 30, 2010

What's another word for New Years Resolutions?

I have been considering starting up a blog for a while.  Friends tell me I have some very interesting stories and I think keeping a log of them might be kind of fun.  Plus, as a new years resolution to myself and my relationship with my boyfriend, I've decided to use this as an outlet for my frustrations, rather than word-vomiting all over him when the frustrations of the world/day come crashing down on me.  Hopefully this will help us pull out of the rough spot we've been in lately... But I digress. 

So I live in New York City, which, of course, I love.  I love how new and old combine here to make a uniquely beautiful grouping of people.  Anything you could possibly want is in this city somewhere!  Oh, you need a hot dog wrapped in a pretzel smothered in nacho cheese, green relish, ketchup, mustard and onions served to you by a basket weaving monk at 3AM on a Tuesday?  We got you.


What is WRONG with this city and it's inability to remove unwanted items from the street?  Generally I would be speaking about garbage or bums, since there is an over abundance of both (especially since Giuliani left.  I wonder what he did with all the bums back then...??).  But today I am talking about snow.  In particular, the melted sludgy snow that can be found in yet undiscovered oceans at the corner of every street.  Where did it all come from?!  Just walking 2 blocks you could end up waist deep in the stuff!  And forget about your shoes.  They're done for.  The snow is out to get them, and the snow always wins.  So put away those cute Mary Jane's.  Any type of open toe is strictly forbidden.  And suede or leather?  You must be crazy!  This basically leaves you with the option of sneaker, or those really attractive Napoleon Dynamite style snow boots.

Now, I ask you.  How am I supposed to effectively show my face in the fashion capital while wearing Napoleon Dynamite boots?  And now do you women that sport cute shoes regardless of weather keep them looking so shiny and new?!  Or is that it?  They are shiny and new for one day and then you wear them out and they are ruined and then you go and buy ANOTHER pair of shiny and new shoes?  That must be frustrating and expensive.  I know I don't have the money for that.  Are you kidding me?  I pay 3 times my parent's mortgage for a shared 1 bedroom apartment in Queens.  Seriously?!

And it's not as though my office makes any type of concession for the weather.  I'm still expected to roll in all business wear and professional looking.  So then I am wearing sneakers (because Napoleon Dynamite boots?  Just.... no.) with the bottoms of my pants tucked inside of them so they don't drag on the ground, as they are tailored for wearing heels with them.  Then I have my "pretty" shoes shoved into my bag which I have to change into at the office, and then I have my soaking wet sneakers sitting under my desk stinking of city sludge all day.  It makes me self conscious.

Anyway, I walked through subway entrances 3 times today to avoid having to cross the street and step in the sludge.  Not sure if the steps were worth it, but my feet are dry and toasty.  And not stinky.  BONUS!  I feel more positive already. :)